I recently traveled back to my hometown in Michigan. While I was there, my mom and four younger sisters were kind enough to host a baby shower for Baby Namenye!
I typically despise being the center of attention, and I don't like everyone fussing around me. But I was so wonderfully surprised that this celebration was different! I really wasn't the center of attention, per se, but my little unborn babe was. I remember stressing about my wedding and bridal shower so much and worrying if I was doing things the right way or following all the rules for a proper wedding. But when the joy and attention was focused around the little person growing inside of me, I found myself so relaxed and calm. I was actually so pleased to be able to reconnect with my friends and family and get excited about the little boy who will be coming.
The best feeling in the world is holding a pair of little shoes or a soft, handmade beanie in my hands and remembering that a precious little person will be wearing them. When I look at the blankets and bibs and outfits, the little kicks that accompany me everyday suddenly become so...not abstract. There is a little human that I will get to know and love and feed and clothe, and that is so thrilling to realize.
I have never seen myself as a motherly type, so it's very freeing to celebrate authentically with my closest people and remember that having a baby is not about fitting into a "type". I am so, so undeserving of this little boy and I can't help but feel heaps of joyful gratitude for his existence. The pressure of me doesn't exist so much anymore, and all I feel is this new, profound sense of happiness because this little boy exists.
All of the pineapple cakes and gifts and cards and games aside, I know that this little life is so beautiful and precious to me, and it's okay for me to bask in the happiness that he's given me.
Cheers to such a lovely day! Baby Nam, we love you.